Pressuring Week!!!

Monday! No classes! I really love it. "Suspension of classes" is my favorite news. During Monday, I spent my time doing my assignments and talking with my cousins. This day maybe the best day of the week. My mother is always reminding me about my assignments and other home works. Sometimes, I got so irritated. I know that I shouldn't be irritated because she is just reminding me BUT her voice already irritates my ears.

On the next day, I still don't want to go to school. My mother took a very hard time in waking me up. One of my cousin who stopped schooling told me that he already miss going to school. As I am listening to him, I felt different. I got confuse. I am just thinking of the reason why he missed going to school. Because, if I were on his place, I think I will really enjoy the very long vacation. Sometimes, I really don’t like to go to school anymore. How I wished there is no classes again. He also told me that I am so lucky because my parents can afford my studies. That time, I felt bad. I realized that I am really lucky.

This week is really full of challenges and adventures. Almost all the lessons became harder. Sometimes, I find it hard to understand the lessons. Haaahhh,,, I am just trying my best to study. I know that no one will help me, except myself.

Now, I still find it hard to talk to my other classmates. I can’t adjust yet. One time, I open my friendster account and I saw all the pictures of the “fluoriniztah”. I remember my classmates again. I missed them a lot. I missed our bonding before. Every time I will see them, I feel very happy. Going out every lunch and eating with my former classmates is one of my favorite things to do.

Last Friday, I felt so irritated to one of my classmates. It seems that she is accusing me of getting her handkerchief. I really don’t like that kind of attitude. Even though she is just joking, she should not accuse somebody. That joke means a lot to me.

A lot of things happened during this week. I don’t know if I can still handle it. I just believe that everything is happening for a reason.

Solitary Moments...

One week had already passed. Now, it's a new week, a new challenge, and a new adventure. This week is really different. I enjoy it BUT there's still a lot of things that made my day incomplete.

This week, our group was assigned to clean the room. Before, to clean the room is one of my favorite things to do. Now, it's quite different. I don't know the reason why, but I really find it boring to clean the room. Every morning, I watered the plants outside our room and I helped Elaidia cleaned our CR.

If I will compare this week to the past week, I can say that it is really harder. It is tough in different ways. In terms of academics, we had a lot of new lessons. The lessons are hard for me. We also have a lot of things to do. I find it hard because of the pressure. I belong to the "N" section and the expectations to our section is really high. Sometimes, I feel like I don't deserve to be there. Haaaaaaaahhhh, I'm still in the period of adjustment. Speaking of adjustment, I am still trying to adjust to my new classmates. It is really the hardest thing to do. When I heared them talking about their sophomore life, I also remember my life before. When I heared them laughing with each other, I remember my former classmates. How I wished I am with them. I missed everything about them. I missed all the laughs that made our stomach ached. I missed all their jokes, that made me forget all my problems. I missed the "Fluoriniztah". Everytime I saw them, I feel happy. I always tell them that I am happy with my life now BUT behind those laughs and smiles is a person full of sadness. Until now, I am still not that comfortable with them. Sometimes, I feel like they don't want to talk to me. I just try my very best to have a bonding with them. Before, I don't experience being alone. Now, there were times that I am really alone, especially when Elaidia is not with me. She is my closest friend in our section. If I will be given a chance, I still want to be with my former classmates.

"First impressions never lasts", as what others said. I believe it is true. When I was still in first year and second year, I thought that my classmates now are really serious , especially when it comes to study. Now, I am already with them for two weeks. I found out that they are not really serious.

A lot of changes already happened in my life since I become a junior student. I already learned a lot of things, academically and morally. Now, I will try my best to apply all the things that I learned and all the things that I will still learn in my daily life.

Dealing With New Sets of People

Adjusting to a new environment is one of the hardest things to do especially for a person who become used to their former surroundings. I've been a "Fluorine" student for two years. Now, I was transferred to another section. I am now a III-Nitrogen student.

During the first day of classes, talking to everyone makes me nervous and afraid. I feel so alone. I am like a stranger. I don't to know to whom I will talk to. Good thing, some of my former classmates are with me. When I arrived in school, I go with Elaidia and Jenny. Now, am facing a new adventure in my life, new classmates and new people to deal with. I don't know how I will talk to them. During the class, I tried to greet my classmates. Introducing myself is really difficult for me to do. Sometimes, i just tried to keep quiet. For me, it is really hard to talk to them. I felt like they don't want to talk to me. During vacant times, I just go with my former classmates. While I am with them, they asked me how is it to be in “N”. I always tell them that it is fine. Yes, it is fine. But, it is still hard. At first it is so difficult to talk, but as days passes by, I became open to my new classmates. Now, I have more friends and I can easily talk to them without nervousness and without being afraid. How I wish I will enjoy my junior life althroughout.